I'm stuck in the tardis

Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity.
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.

Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end.
Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
Terrified of being wrong. Ultimatum prison cell.

Saturn ascends, choose one or ten. Hang on or be humbled again.

I don't like grudges, but it's human nature. Those lyrics are from a song called The Grudge by Tool.
Tool are one of the more imaginative american bands. Plus theres no snare on that song. Pure drumming almost tribal like.
Try not to hold a grudge. In other news i'm still bored to tears. Intresting IM convos today from a few different people.
I think i need to get out a bit more often than i do. I'll be a virgin forever if i stay locked away trying to figure out why i'm here.
I need to live in the now and not lost in thought. But thought is my greatest strength and also my greatest weakness.
Thought disorder makes me sound like a complete loon. But i'm not. I'm quite shy in person. I don't tend to speak very much. Unless a person greatly intrests me, then i will speak. Like when a friend of mine and lost a few other friends in london. It was nice to actually speak to her, without anyone else butting in.
I really enjoy her company, she makes me laugh, even when she dug her nails in to stop herself falling down the stairs near a tube station hehe.