I'm stuck in the tardis

I have far too many of them running through my head at the moment.
I am once again a slave to my thoughts.
Trying to organise them into some logical form.
But that always fails.

And i end up being stuck in a loop. Forever repeating myself. Delayed in getting on with my life.
This is what brings me down the most. Being unable to see past the thoughts that distract me, and therefore make me miss out on life.
I sometimes wish i'd never been born. But wishful thinking gets me nowhere.

I guess it's time to find that inner strength of mine and cut through all the crap. I've never understood why people say i'm a strong person.
I can be tough when i need to be. But most of the time i'm just trying to put a plaster on the wounds to stop myself from falling into a thousand shattered pieces of glass.

I want to be normal. But since when has anyone been normal ? Normality is a condition which soicety places on a person.
This is yet another factor that can hinder a person in reaching the dizzy heights of where their talents can take them.
No one in the west really thinks outside of the box anymore. We are trapped in a void of nihilism. Obsessed with pointless celebs, who haven't really done anything to deserve to fame and fortune.
I don't hate the culture i've grown up in, i just dislike where we might be headed. A fall into the abyss, where madman rule the world. And mankind enters another dark age.

But i'm hopeful we can avoid this trap, which has befallen many different cultures. My moods might be dark, but i do see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes, only for that light to be taken away. Leaving me in the darkness of my mind. Thinking of pointless drivel like this.